in memoriam

I remembered a happy moment in my life. And now it is over. Tomorrow will be the 6th month since he passed away. I really miss him, my lovely dog, Elmo. He is such a precious present on my birthday. My best friends gave Elmo to me because on my birthday I suggested my friends to give me a puppy. How lucky I am to get what I wanted on my birthday.

But I can't take care of him yeah maybe that's why I lost him. On the first day he came to my home, 21st February, just one hour I could take care of him and then I went to Jazz Night. When I came home, my mom told me that Elmo fell. I was really sad. And I promised to take care of him. Every morning I gave him a dog's food. After school I always played with him. But one day, on Friday night when I washed him, he was different. He became to a quiet puppy. I wondered what happen with him. And then on Sunday morning, I brought him into a veterinarian. The veterinarian said that his condition is really bad. The way is just to let him go. Maybe he could heal by the injection that she gave but it was just a little possibility. On the Sunday afternoon, he passed away. I cried, I lost him. I lost my new little friend. And I can't forget all of the time that we shared together.

Many people told that dog is human's best friend. And I agree with it. Now I really want to have a new puppy. I promise to take care of it. I want to find another Elmo.

Suatu Siang

Untuk waktu yang entah kapan dan bagaimana
Suatu kejadian yang benar-benar tak terduga
Waktu panjang di siang hari
Yang tiba-tiba datang menghampiri
Mungkinkah di siang itu datang seorang peri?
Yang menggelapkan mata dan membuka hati
Suatu siang yang panjang
Kapankah hal itu akan kembali datang?
Sebab tak kumengerti sebenarnya apa yang terjadi
Kemudian dia pun menghilang pergi
Tanpa kubisa temukan jejak hilang kaki
Suatu siang di lain kesempatan
Yang terdengar berita tak menyenangkan
Mengapa harus begitu tiba-tiba, tanpa ada kepastian?
Ternyata peri masih mau mengerti
Keingintahuan hati ini
Dilepaskannyalah kepakan sayap sebelahnya
Walaupun sakit namun ingin minta dikembalikan
Namun mungkin juga ia ingin kepakan yang lain
Hingga di suatu siang kutemukan kembali dia
Namun tetap tak kutemukan penjelasan
Sehingga tidak dapat mengubah keadaan
Mengapa harus peri itu yang selalu membuat penasaran?
Mungkinkah peri itu tak dapat tergantikan?
Akan tetapi, apakah sang peri pernah sedikitpun mengingat siang itu?
Bahkan ia sekarang sudah benar-benar menghilang entah kemana
Apakah harus kukejar kembali?
Dan menjawab semua dahaga hati?
Ataukah biarlah saja ia mengepakkan sayapnya
Biar suatu saat aku yang tahu jejaknya?
Sudah, lupakanlah..
Biarlah hal ini tak terakhiri
Sampai akhirnya dia yang terbangun dan aku pun sudah tak peduli
Semoga akan ada suatu siang yang lebih indah dari siang itu.

teddy bear

recently, I don't know why I love this teddy bear. I'm happy to see it, I'm happy to caress it. Unfortunately this teddy bear is small so I can't hug it. Maybe one day I want to buy another big teddy bear so I can hug it and sleep on it. Or maybe someone want to give me a huge teddy bear? Haha.. I hope I can get a huge teddy bear from my lover :)

This is a gift from my classmate on 11th grade and she gave me on my sweet 17th birthday. Thank you, Verina!

I don't know why I love this stuff. I think this teddy bear looks cute with the scarf on his neck. Now this teddy bear always beside on my bed. Love you teddy :D

where are you

I'm staring out at the sky
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry?
What's the color of his eyes? Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who's gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who's gonna take me so high?
~Natalie

Hello this is my first blog. Glad to be here..